Build walls, build them high.
Soon this heart will wither and dry.
Then my feelings will leave or die.
Build the walls, build 'em high.
Deep depression sets in,
afraid of what was lost.
Scared into a quiet,
wanting happiness at any cost.
Upon meeting, you were amazing.
Drew me ever closer to you.
Was it love or recovery,
maybe affection long over-due?
Build walls, build them high.
Soon this heart will wither and dry.
Then all my feelings will leave or die.
Build the walls, build 'em high.
Locked into a trance,
fear of my own thoughts.
Will you have the patience-
the will that I long sought?
I'm tired of being vulnerable-
If you were to die today,
I truly wish you'd know,
that in my heart you'll always live,
and in my actions, it will show.
You'd be much more than merely a memory.
My love for you would never cease,
yet with me,
you would always be.
I don't want to argue,
and I don't want to fight.
I want to cherish the moments,
hoping to soon hold you tight.
I wish I could show you more,
just how much you mean to me.
But my stubborn actions get in the way,
letting me assume to just leave you be.
I'll try harder each day
to learn from these mistakes.
Hopefully gaining from my choices,
not creating more headaches.
If you were to die today,
I
While drifting through my mind,
you entwine my every thought.
Always leaving me untouched,
yet still I'm left distraught.
Your name sits on the tip of my tongue,
never to resonate from my lips.
Always reaching for you,
but over me, your heart skips.
I have hopes,
hopes that you will someday see...
that you'll see how perfect we were,
together, you and me.
I'll never completely let go,
I'll keep that slight hope.
Maybe you'll realize,
but I feel I'll just be forced to cope.
Your name still rests on the tip of my tongue,
too afraid to let it escape aloud.
But in my mind, you'll always stay.
To you, my heart will always be bou
Tossing and turning,
all through the night.
Dreams filled with memories
far from delight.
I wake from allusion,
from what could have been.
To see reality,
as tears fall again.
Just too much stress,
Just too much pain.
Always wondering,
When I'll fuck it up again.
I'm tired of the anxiety,
And feeling insecure.
I'm tired of not ever
Feeling more assured.
I wish I could just say
The way I really feel.
But it never comes out right
Never giving you time to heal.
Just too much stess,
Just too much pain.
Always wondering,
When I'll fuck it up again.
Yes it happened again
I hurt you once more.
Regreting life now,
As I finish closing that unopened door.
So now we're building up the walls,
That for so long were being torn down.
Shutting ourselfs off,
From everyone around.
Just too much stess,
They say it's better to have loved and lost,
than never to have loved at all...
But when the one you lost was your world,
are you able to pick up from the fall?
Day and night I think to myself,
will I find true love again?
Or will my feelings go to waste,
and we end up staying "Just Friends?"
I can tell you know, I often think of her,
I can see it in your eyes.
Why do I dwell on the past and ignore the present?
Yet in these next words my real truth lies.
My heart is yours, as you'll always know.
I'll love you till the end.
Even if worse comes to worse,
Or we never become more than close friends.
There if I ever needed her,
she'd stay by my side.
The definition of a great friend,
to her I could confide.
The sweetest personality
I've ever run across.
Always am i thankful,
That upon her path I've crossed.
I've learned so much,
from her so far.
If you're more open,
the better off you are.
She puts up with me,
no matter the subject.
All my issues,
and we still seem to connect.
I love her so much,
she truely is the best.
To meet someone so great,
I never could of guessed.
But I guess what I'm saying,
is I'd hope to never lose her.
Hopefully returning the favor,
by always being there for her.
The Hell You Put Me Through by punkrockerz, literature
Literature
The Hell You Put Me Through
I sit up at night,
thinking of what to say.
Sorting out my thoughts,
damn, I even prayed.
I wonder if you meant it,
when you said you cared.
After years of "misunderstandings"
you'd think I was prepared...
Prepared for the hurt,
of when I realized the lies.
Again and again...
keeping your disguise...
Hiding how you feel from me,
but I guess that goes both ways.
We never really talked;
caught up in foolish trade.
I'd do anything to know,
just how you really feel.
But I guess it doesn't matter,
'cause this was never actually real.
What were we doing?
Just lying to ourselves?
Hiding our true feelings
upon high unreached s
I never thought it'd come to this,
that we'd end up this way.
No touching, no feelings,
falling farther apart everyday.
Lacking in confidence,
drowning in thought.
Who'd ever think,
separation we sought?
We hid it well,
fell slowly apart.
But now I realize,
you left with my heart.
How in the world is it,
that you came through?
When throughout the struggle,
the weakness was you.
You knew,
just as well as I,
that I was the STRENGTH,
that stopped this lie.
And now I want that back,
my strength you took.
I've lost my feelings,
and don't quite know where to look.
I can't go back,
what would that help?
I just want my
You're here now..
tell me why.
For so many years you were gone,
never to care.
But now you see don't you?
You see the hurt you've caused.
You say you wanna make it better;
you want me closer now.
But I don't want to be near you.
And now you feel the pain...
What about then, when you caused it all;
when you were the focus of all my hate?
When I sent the signals, you looked away,
never wanting to face your mistakes.
And now you're here,
denying it all, but trying to make me smile;
trying to hide your insecurities.
And now you feel the pain...
What do you think...
it will all just go away?
What do you think...
does it feel g
Build walls, build them high.
Soon this heart will wither and dry.
Then my feelings will leave or die.
Build the walls, build 'em high.
Deep depression sets in,
afraid of what was lost.
Scared into a quiet,
wanting happiness at any cost.
Upon meeting, you were amazing.
Drew me ever closer to you.
Was it love or recovery,
maybe affection long over-due?
Build walls, build them high.
Soon this heart will wither and dry.
Then all my feelings will leave or die.
Build the walls, build 'em high.
Locked into a trance,
fear of my own thoughts.
Will you have the patience-
the will that I long sought?
I'm tired of being vulnerable-